Oof, this is bringing tears. Life happens and it changes us. So many losses and seeming missteps, and bodies/hearts bearing scars as you say, some visible, many not. My only salvation perhaps is that, possibly because of the adhd I have self-diagnosed very late in life, I have really never had much vision of my future. I am always now. Not sure it's a consolation as it makes it hard to look forward to anything except things with a relatively near deadline. I do worry about the world we are leaving to others though, and not knowing how to fix any of the myriad problems, I can only try to be gentler in the now, with others and myself.
I understand that too. It's a quirk of my brain, doesn't stop the worry for the future, but has trouble envisioning ahead, I can't make a picture of the future, but I still fret over the way the world is. Doesn't mean I am always grounded in the present, and like you when I am in nature, usually with a camera looking and taking everything in, or in the studio actively painting, that I can be present and not worrying about "all the things". I don't know if that makes sense to anyone who doesn't have this kind of brain.
Well said
Well written
And sadly true in my case and many others
Always trying to rebuild
Sometimes, many times missing the me that existed in ‘the before ‘
Good writing
Thank you
I used to dance…
Love it! 💔
Oof, this is bringing tears. Life happens and it changes us. So many losses and seeming missteps, and bodies/hearts bearing scars as you say, some visible, many not. My only salvation perhaps is that, possibly because of the adhd I have self-diagnosed very late in life, I have really never had much vision of my future. I am always now. Not sure it's a consolation as it makes it hard to look forward to anything except things with a relatively near deadline. I do worry about the world we are leaving to others though, and not knowing how to fix any of the myriad problems, I can only try to be gentler in the now, with others and myself.
I understand that too. It's a quirk of my brain, doesn't stop the worry for the future, but has trouble envisioning ahead, I can't make a picture of the future, but I still fret over the way the world is. Doesn't mean I am always grounded in the present, and like you when I am in nature, usually with a camera looking and taking everything in, or in the studio actively painting, that I can be present and not worrying about "all the things". I don't know if that makes sense to anyone who doesn't have this kind of brain.